Muscle Memory

To let go consciously is consent to go naked once again. It is not like a slit in a skirt pocket or things misappropriated or forgotten in human precipitation and haste. 

It is simply and painfully this. One finger, then the other, and another,
Unlatching. A quick weakening of the heart.

I’ve gotten so good at letting go
I’ve forgotten how to carry

Teach me how to hold
You


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